i love these songs fung!!!!
hope you like them too.....
i love dancing in the moonlight best.....

love bi..
you should too you know...
very beneficial....
how and why do i know?

weell....

see.....

i love her too.
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What???? what do u mean by saying i spoiled your story??!!
yeah we went to his house....huge....a lift and countless rooms.....

YEAH!!! I KNOW I WANT YOU TO COME BACK TOO!!!
What's curry potato???never heard of it before...


hey im sorry i didnt go on9 just now....i was out....

where are you now fung?? is it the new york library??

hey could u do me a favour?? - go to all these historical places and get me those free pamphlets/brochures at those counters? can?
i'd love to read and collect them....

yo can i get the bikini!!!!!!!!!!
i want i want i want want want....
HAHAHHA

is kelly the cousin?
or your bro's sis??
coz i remember you said somethign about her being a bio student....
woah tell ur cousin to be a little less pessimistic man....
haha....so a re you staying with his family?

no way man!!!
we are so not leaving you out of thigns!!!!!
i talka bout you all the time...

"Right, Mich??"

"Righty-o, BI!!"....

See?

Hhahahahah

hey i want you to be home for my bday!!!!
hmph....ahahahah.....

we're going to the cempaka production later...im gonna pick andrew then go to ming's, redz is going too.....

love you fungi!!!!!!

love,
bi....


TAKE CARE!!!
MISS YOU!!!
LOVE YOU!!!

TAKE CA- okay i'll stop that now...

bye bye!!!!
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FUCK!DAMMIT!
you spoil my storyyyyyy
*SOB SOB SOB*
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

*cries hysterically*

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

garrrrrrrrrr. dam you!!!!!!!


*SNIFF*















oh well. lol. but serious? DONT TELL ME ANYMORE OR I WILL KILL YOU!
=]

omg. u went to tr's hse? frikin unfair.... *cries*
i would so rather be in msia with you guys. help me wish natty a happy bday kayz? faaaanks. i miss msia. i miss you all sooo so so so much! i cant wait to get home. i really really cant. US is great and all, and my brother is leaving. which is sad...
but..


I WANNA GO BACK!!!!!



*cry*




i havnt watch curry potato yet. nor transformers. will watch it in st louis. >< hopefully.


okay. good things now.



went to the largest library ive seen before in my life today. dam cool. =P ten stories. friggin huge. i even got a map. ahahaha.

bought the best heels ever!!!! =] dammm nice. ahahah. its $22. times it by 3.45, itll become RM. u do the math. =P

here are the things i bought for you guys.

a black v-neck top (tie behind type)
brown bikini (friggin sexy =P)
black and white hand bag (eeek)

for you all. (my darling besties) whoever can fit into wat. gets wat lar. lol. ill try to buy more. eheheh

bought loads of clothes and pants for me myself and I tho. I get special treatment =P muahahahhaa. lol!

things are sorta expensive here. but the branded here compared to branded there are waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay more cheaper. loads of sales are on. but even those are expensive. do you noe a normal apartment in New York (Which i have not been yet. still in chicago. going there tomorrow =P) cost 3 million US? thats like.. RM 10 MILLION!!!!! omg!

lol. i have an immature 27 yr old cuzin thats a doctor. he insults me *pout* so i poke him =P



anyway. Kelly wants to become a doctor. so we were talking about the doctor stuff. lol. so heres what he has to say.


good points:
1. you get to save peoples lives.
2. when you finish your residency you may earn about 300,000US a year (about a million RM) WHICH IS LOADS!


bad points.
1. med schools very expensive.
2. GREYS ANATOMY AND SCRUBS ARE TOTAL BULLSHIT. YOU DO NOT HAVE SEX. YOU HAVE NO TIME! (exact quote. sigh. men)
3. 100 hours a week. holy shittt. a normal person is 40 hours a week. ><
4. lucky to have 4 hours of sleep a day.
5. on call all the time.
6. ppl who work in Mcdonalds earn more per hour than a resident.
7. after you graduate you still have to go to med school.
8. 5 years of residency (including internship)
9. NOT WORTH IT.







sorry babes. my cusin's very pessimistic. lol. im sure there are more good points. he's just being a bastard. i think you should be a doctor tho. become famous. i get a famous best friend. *yay*
lolzzz =P








anyway. miss you so much. hope you arent leaving me out of much things. =[
you have no idea how much i wish i could be there with you guys. sigh. michelle and sy are so lucky. i miss michelle too! LOADS.
dont have too much fun without me! *CRY*



love, fungus.


WILL UPDATE MORE LATER
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FUNGGGGGG!!!!!!!!!!!

I MISS YOU SOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!

HOW ARE YOU???!?!!!!!!

i didn't think you'd be able to go online so soon!!!!!
woah that expensive huh?
nevermind la....you dont have to get me a present....
OH MY GOSH! YOU LUCKY...UH ....GIRL!!!
So many places, so little time!!

hey give me more updates k??

VOL-DE-MORT!
HA! i said his name.. didnt flinch!
lol!
but the movie sucks la....it cant compare to the book.....sigh....i was so disappointed.....

GUESS WHAT???!!!!!
ginny and harry get married ginny and harry get married ginny and harry get married ginny and harry get married!!!!
ron and hermione get married ron and hermione get married ron and hermione get married ron and hermione get married!!!!
shhshahahaahahah......
they have kids they have kids...all of them...alll of them!!!!

LOL.

THINGS THAT HAVE BEEN HAPPENING:

1.Mich and I and Su Yen went to Yen's house, HUGE!!!
2.We (above said "we") have singing lessonns!!!
3. Mich and I have tennis together now!!
DONT worry....you're irreplaceable man....(did i spell that right??)
4.Natalie's bday today - went to her place for her party with mich - put whole face in whipped cream - felt like vomiting - i still smell of baby vomit....hahah....
5. cempaka production tomorrow - gonna watch it with drew, redz and mich
6.oh my gosh and i went to ming's dance comp in shangri la!!! she was fabulous!! won champion, 2nd place and some others!! she basically won sth for every event she danced in!! the moves were brilliant man....

that's about it....so boring man....compared to yours la anyway.......sob sob.....

im reading harry potter 7 one more time!!! oh yeah!! i love hp man....

oh my goodness the weather sounds really unpredictable....I LOVE IT!!!
how were the hotels so far??? nice??? the guys are "fei zhais" huh?? aahahha.... but when they were hot they were oh-so-hawt hu???
haahahaa.....

YOU'VE BEEN LOBSTERIZED!! HAHAHHAHA!!! sorry....a bit high from all the cake and cream and sour cream and ice cream (i have seriously and all those typs of cream today hahhaha)

I MISS YOU LIKE A FAT GIRL (ME) MISSES HER FOOD WHEN SHE'S ON A DIET!!!!!!!

LOVE YOU!!!
TAKE CARE!!!
MISS YOU (AS YOU SHOULD NOW KNOW)!!!

XOXOXOXOXOXXXXXXXXXOOOOOOXOOXOOOOOOOOOXOOXXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOXXOOXX,
bi.

P.S. TAKE CARE yeah?
Blogged @ 9:25 PM
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biaaaaaaaaaaaancaaaaaaaaaaaa

omg omg omg

i miss you sooo much. ><
finally got a chance to use the internet. I'm in san fransisco at the moment. its bloody cold here. tell u more about it later. im heading to chicago tomorrow. flights at um... 8 i think. sigh. need to wake up at 5am
lucky you. its bout 11 pm here and its 1.30 there. sigh. =]

i miss you loads.and i really thank you for the song. =] dont have time to read the poem. i promise ill try to read it asap.

im really really sorry im missing your birthday. i really wanna be there. i miss you so much. >< and michelle and zheng and everyone else.

things here are so expensive. the shoes are about 30-60 us which is like. 100-200rm.and the clothes are about there too. i found a few nice ones for you. i hope they can fit. and you better share them with me. i LOVE them. most of them anyway. hehe

my trips like this. los angelus - las vegas - la - san diego - la - san fransisco. after this would be - chicago - new york - st.louis - la - MALAYSIA!!!

a few more weeks to go. >< till i get bak home. i miss you sooo much.


a few things i found out about places.

los angelus.
1. suns friggin hott. winds dam cold. WTH?
2. it burned half my skin off. IVE BEEN LOBSTERIZED!
3. disneyland's for kids. disneyland california adventures ROCKS!
4. hollywood aint that grand. it actually quite... old. and. not that grand.
5. UNIVERSAL STUDIOS ROCKS!
6. LA aint that good either. ><
update more later. =]

las vegas.
1. hottest place on earth
2. bloody loads of strip clubs. ><
3. casinos are so cool! I WANNA PLAY POKER! dammit im too young.
4. valet boys and cocktail girls earn shitload of cash.
5. its a poker place rite? WHY THE HELL IS IT SO HRAD TO FIND POKER CHIPS!?!?!?!
6. in the middle of a bloody desert.
7. burned the other half of the skin off. ><
update more later =]

san deigo.
1. cold. and hot. ><
2. SEA WORLD"s so cute. !
3. SHAMU is pretty. Shamu the killer whale i mean.
4. i bought a seal. ahahahaha a toy one of course. ><
5. didn't see much tho.
update more later too =]

san fransisco.
1. HOLY SHIT COLD. FREEZING MY BUTT OFF HERE!
2. dam dam dam cold. and its summer. WTF?
3. road designers here do not use rulers. ahahah.
4. golden gate bridge. isnt actually golden. its orange. weeeeird.
5. golden gate bridge. is GINORMOUS!
6. the houses are cute. =P
7. and they look like those in the movies. ehehhee.
update more latterrrrr.


AMERICA.
1. FEI ZHAI's EVERYWHERE!
2. saw a fei zai so fei he needed a stroller. im being serious.
3. not alot of hot guys. but the hot guys that are here are like. 'WHOAAAH'
4. but their not AMERICAN. >< lol
5. weirdest place on earth.
6. hot and cold. and hot and cold again.
7. ummmmm. update more later. hehe






see? thats USA. promise ill tell you more about it next time. there's sooo much to tell and so little time.... it's getting late. so i should go.. sigh.
ill try to get online in chicago kay?

love youuuu.
you-know-who

MUAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA.
no im serious. im voldermort. *flinch*
oh wait. am i suppose to flinch at my own name?
uhhhh. i think voldermort's ugly. oh wait. i just insulted myself.
DAMMIT i have to go home only i can read/watch harry poppoootterrrrr.
SNIFFFFFF
darnit.




LOVE YOU BIANCA.and all. =]
- FUNGUS
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Silver Glaciers

Teetering on the edge of humanity,
She stands, bold and brazen
Gazing determinedly at the 175 degree slope before her
She traces a cross on her padded chest.

The icey wind slaps her face
Peeling off several layers of her numb skin
Her body, although seemingly rigid,
Glides gracefully through the banks of elegant snow.

What does she feel, I would like to imagine.
Is it the unbearable cold that takes over her entirely?
Or is it the overwhelming intensity of her focus?
Whichever way, her graceful poise and gait hides it all.

The delicate design of her skiis
Make a swooshing sound as they turn corners
Rapidly transporting her down the slope
Engaging groups of curious people.

She lifts her eyes from the slope for a second
Astonished by the picturesque view
The off-white glaciers reflected the sun's glare
She squinted to prevent the sunlight obscuring her view.

Oncemore, she glanced up,
The mountain's trees gave off a bluish tinge
Their fronds weighed down by the morning's downpour of snow
Making its surroundings even colder than it really was.

Feeling her legs cutting through the knee's-deep of snow
A sudden emotion of elation welled inside her
As she turned a sharp corner
She glanced up and was amazed.

Her thoughts and emotions ended
The journey down, as fast as it had started.

Love
Bi
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I Carry Your Heart With Me by E. E. Cummings


I carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)


Isn't this poem great?
It's read out in "In Her Shoes".

To : Tai Fung Ying Tan
From: Bianca Hoh Yen Peng

Love
Bi.

Miss you!!
Blogged @ 9:14 AM
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sigh fungi is still not back...
what am i saying!
of course she isnt.....she's only been gone three days!
geez.....
and she's gonna miss my birthday.....how sucky is that......
Blogged @ 4:42 PM
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dear fungus just left kuala lumpur..........
sob sob.....oh well....usa has her now and they will, i hope fin her highly amusing.....
hahah....dont know why i felt i like saying that.....
i suddenly wonder if michelle knows about our blog.....i hope....
anyway HARRY POTTER MONTH IS THIS MONTH!!!!
hhaha...jk jk its just that the book's coming out AND the movie too.....
OH YEAH!
i love harry potter so much....unfortunately michy doesnt really fancy reading....


i miss fungus already!.....

love bi
Blogged @ 3:30 PM
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ladididididi. imma sooo bored. ><
reading actually. not bored of reading. but so bored im reading. =] but reading rocks. so. it rocks. niehe.

my brothers getting bullied by maxie. ahahahaha. =D im gonna miss my brother. SNIFF. *HUGHUGHUG*
*cry*

ah. shits. gtg now. ill seeee yoooooooooooooooooooooooooou
and miss you. =]
looooooooooooooooooooove, fungus

p.s. *sniff* my brother *sniff*
Blogged @ 11:41 AM
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leaving in half an hour to the airport. This will be my last entry until I come back. Unless the internet there works, then ill post there too!

Wonder how US will be like? I really miss horse riding. Odd, I noe, but I hope there is a ranch there. And I miss Turner. ><

I will miss you bi. LOADS. and of course michelle, zheng, cindy, jason, andrew, so on... =]
WILL MISS YOU ALL!!!!

looooove, Fungus
Blogged @ 11:32 AM
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I'm leaving tomorrow. ><
Technically? It's today. Siigh. It's 1 am and I feel pissed off for some reason. And sad. Very, very sad. Just feel like everythings falling apart, even though I don't think they are... It's confusing...

Oh and Bianca. Don't worry about the privacy thing. It's meant to be public anyway rite? =] Will miss you like hell when I go. I'm really, really sorry that I wouldn't be here on your birthday. I love you! and happy soon to come birthday.

loooooooooooooooooooooooooove, Fungus. Toufu.
Blogged @ 1:13 AM
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A story of love inspired me to write this. Just felt like writing it.


“Why do you do what you do?” she whispered softly, her voice echoing through the forlorn night, tears glistened in her eyes.

His heart ached, his head pounded. It wasn’t his fault! Please understand… It wasn’t… It wasn’t…

“I trusted you… and why?” she looked up, her poignant eyes haunting him. Anger, resentment, guilt and immense hurt hovered in its silvery depth.

He shook his head. Why couldn’t she understand? Why couldn’t she?

“I loved you… No, I still loved you…” Her eyes begged him, pleaded him. “Why?” Her cry was almost desperate. Desperate for him and his reasons.

The back of his eyes stung, the pain in his heart just intensified. She lay there, broken and spoiled in more ways than one. His heart ached to see her in that state, her once strong resolve broken into pieces, shattered like fragile glass… All by a monster… by him.

“Why?”

The rain poured, crying together with her. Her golden tresses stuck to her skin, her dark black gown hanging on her curves. To him, she never looked more beautiful.

“Why?”

Because he died.



-Fungus
Blogged @ 12:26 AM
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I'll miss you so much too fungus.....
you crazy girl....going to the us for the whole of the summer!
hmph....fine leave me and michelle alone!
yesterday cindy and i were still in school at 4 something and later if you're free call me....i'll tell you the whole story...
since mr.mcadam knows we have a blog, i don't wonder if some other unwanted viewers know about it too then it'll be so....impersonal....
anyway the story is about some guys playing football....
call me later!

love
bi.

P.S. yeah shoe size 7. haha..and who is jamisie?? and i love those poetic lines.....
Blogged @ 4:25 PM
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A poem game that me and James used to play. It was fun! =D


Alienated, diverse. Opposites you may say.
Black and white, the dark and the light.

Moonrise, Sunset, Each a world of opposition
Embraced and Shallow, Loved and Hated

It is both worlds that bear the burden
Through the agony of a never-ending battle.

A reflection between worlds of burden and despair
Stare straight into the mirror one of battle and other of peace

One, of fury and hatred, consumed by darkness
Another, of love and compassion, eternally basking in the light

Separated by a thin line, half of half a gaze of fate twined
Bear it be in the hands you feel, which time to drown in

The wonders never ceases, of the eccentric ways of humanity
The two worlds, colliding in an ever definite equation.

Cast a stone that ripples through the glass of separated worlds
Each ring breaks and shatters what were once twins...

Ripping through the veils of time,
Would the conflict ever stop?

Realize that through eternity, never an end and never a beginning
Rise up for every fall, is there meaning to question a stoppage in this journey...

Oh yes there is, for there was a meaning to everything.
An eternal fate, a destiny, forever ordained to be ignored. The war continues to rage…

Draw my blood, cross the lines of two worlds
Give me no meaning, and everything else, one world

Beyond the insignificant reason of it all,
Out of the two, one would form, a nation united.

Voices raised up, shatter God's world
In hands of us, our world, A World of Two Worlds...


Bold is me
Non bold, is jamsie Poo!

-Fungus
Blogged @ 9:55 PM
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i miss turner.
i miss turner
i want my turner
TURNER!!!!!!!
sniff
i love turner
i miss turner.
sniff
sob
TURNER ROCKS!
and i miss him.
><
but of course, i miss bi too.
=P

love, toufu.
Blogged @ 9:53 PM
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can't believe school is ovre.
for me at least.
im gonna miss you soo muchhhh!! (bianca)
and other ppl too. =P
size 7? M rite?
ahahahhahahaha
WILLLLLLLLLL MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISSSS YOOOOOOOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
like shyttttttt
when i come bak must hang out kay?
siiigh.
will misss you you you.
snifff.
love you biiii

fungus.
Blogged @ 9:48 PM
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Her Way Of Life

The tears welled up in her ebony eyes
She felt her vein pulsating furiously on her forehead
And slowly one by one
The tears dropped treacherously down.

Her voice raised by a pitch and scratched her throat
Words and phrases came gushing out
Of her livid mouth like a torrent of electricity
Bursting through the dams and barrages.

She could feel her anger pulsating in her body
From her forehead to her toes, rushing up and down
As the seconds went by it swelled
Growing until her restraint disappeared.

She was exasperated with the black and white
Details of her insipid life
She would mute her ears and turn a blind eye
Revealing ethereality in her confidential realm.

Her vexations and petulance rolled
Slowly down the hill
Collecting together into a gigantic ball
Crushing her prior jocular personality.

Standing on the highway of life
Where are the lights to guide her?
Shall none of the bystanders offer a helping hand?
Maybe I should.

XOXO
Bi.
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Flyaway Land

Latching my eyes onto his brooding ones
I enter a foreign place with him
Together we soar above the horizon’s green halo
Hand clutched in hand we take on the world.

Arriving at an island of trees
Our wings slow down and drop off
The seas encompass us with its serenity
It fills his eyes with an azure.

The temperature cools and we build a fire
The ashes peel off and wriggle wildly
The warmth heats our proximate bodies
Reducing the lengths between us.

The salty-sweet smell of the sea
With the moist breeze
Unfastens the bolts to the dungeon door
Exposing a new destiny.

Love,
Bi.
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She swept her hair back into a bunch and somehow managed to secure all her hair in one place with a hair clip. Wonderful invention that one is. I mean the girl, not the clip. She had this air to her. Not an arrogant, high on her horse air but a sort of ethereal one. It gave her a magical glow but then again it might just be my imagination.

In case you don't know this already, I'm Dennis. Dennis Bond. Well I wish anyway. That way Sam might just go to the prom with me. I'm Dennis Grieg. Sam has a wonderful name. I feel that everyone's name matches their personality and qualities. Take Sam for an example, Samantha Tiara Keel is her full name. Samantha has that girl-next-door feel to it, giving her a down-to-earth personality; Tiara shows the other-worldly, sparkly quality to Sam; and well Keel is just Keel.

Today she wore an off-white baby-doll dress with black cross-stitches and sequins on it. Her shorts were army-green in colour and were up to the middle of her thigh, making me feel slightly nauseous without any known reason. Her flats were a metallic silver and had a black bow strapped onto the top, front part. These minuscule details, fragments of her, piled up in my mind, they are kept in a tiny secret compartment of my brain. This treasure chest has "Tiara" engraved on it with a little tiara symbol on both its sides. I try to contain all this information in this box, but sometimes it overflows and spills into the corners of my mind and keeps my whole day occupied.

Most of the time I fantasise about her, in the clean way. The other 10% of the time is the more hopeful time : when I fantasise and day-dream of her falling in love with me and both of us going on luxurious honeymoons. Then another 10% of my time is when I wake up from these reveries and realise with an agonizing jolt that Sam is so close yet so far away.

I once had a beautiful dream where I wrote a French love-letter to her saying "Je t'aime, Samanthat Tiara Keel." but then it turned into a dreadful nightmare when she found it, read it, threw it away and never again spoke to me. I could feel my heart clench and unclench several times in my chest until I felt it would just push out of my chest and all the veins and arteries would be spurting out blood onto the floor and my organs would be dropping out one by one, dop dop dop dop......

Sometimes I can just feel her lips gently graze mine, ever so softly that it was like it never even happened before. If it was a dream I would always wake up just before my lips came in contact with hers. I always would imagine her lips being as soft as jelly and tasting like something sweet, creme caramel maybe or toffee.



Hi fungi. I just felt like writing this. I 'll tell you why as soon as you get back.
Adios.
Hasta luego.
Blogged @ 3:29 PM
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yo.
fung!!!!!!!
fung!!!!!!!!
whhhhere R YOU!!!!
i miss you so much....
these past few days have been so boring without you!
hahaha....
its true though....
you and your crazy horse riding trip thingy!
ARGH...
i'v got so many things i want to tell you about!

1. yesterday i had a really disturbing dream.....about "kiss-shoulder" - french love letter!!
2. general hospital events....
3. my stupid thoughts!

sob two more days until u comee back.........
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Wait and Wait and Wait and Wait..................

I await the melodious times
When the rain pours down frightfully
Yet I toss my head with glee,
And screech, "God, I love this life you've made for me!"

I await the sprinkles of love toppings
Colouring my life with its shades and gradients
Ridding my heart of its painful void
Like it fills my open palm with its shapes.

I await a pleasurable heat to envelope me
The frost, it glistens on my skin no longer
Its shackles do not chain my heart anymore
Instead the warmth tinkles the senses on the tips of my limbs.

Given the chest-clenching times I have passed
Don't you think I ought to have my soul lifted at last?

Love
Bi.
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